So very true ....

One of my very best girlfriends, Monique once said to me that she loved me deeply but didn't like me much at that moment. No one had ever said something like that to me before and I was shocked but really listened to her words. I thought about them and will never forget them. I thank the Lord for her boldness, love for me and for the truth. I needed to hear it. We all need to hear it. We as people can be so ugly and treat each other so unkindly at times. I am so sorry for the things I have said in the past out of anger and how we can never take them back. I was so mean to my mom when I was a teenager. I am sure she forgives me but it grieves me to this day I was so cruel to the one person who stood by me through thick and thin. Especially when she was hurting too. God does that with us too. Some people feel like they are kicked when they are down but sometimes that is the only time we truly listen. God has a still small voice at times and whispers to us but we only hear when we are listening. Are you listening today?

Today I think the hormones are kicking in as I am weepy and "feeling". The thought came to me yesterday - I am a cancer survivor. This has all happened so fast that I haven't had time emotionally to think about what that means. I am so very grateful as it could have gone so differently but by GOD's grace HE had mercy on me and gave me not what I deserve. Please don't get me wrong, no one "deserves" cancer, I just mean I am wicked and without God changing my heart, I deserve to die yet Jesus died for me.

I just want to thank everyone for their support and love and prayers. I want to HUG everyone but feel very convicted I need at least another week before it is safe. I miss hugging my husband, my kids and my friends so much that I can't stand it. I think that part of it has been as challenging as the diet.

My nasea has finally gne away and I have more energy although I can't really go out like a normal person yet I feel a bit trapped. I did go and watch Josh's baseball tryouts but sat alone on the other side of the fields and watched. I cheered from afar. He did great. Then I grabbed a burger and went home. Later today I plan to weed a bit again in the backyard. I love the sunshine and then read my bible a bit online. My quiet time with the Lord has been so very sweet I really look forward to it.

I had been reading that the taste buds are a bit wacky after this treatment and I think mine are but I am finding that sucking on sour lemon drops really helps. They aren't that sour and actually allow me to taste better afterward. So strange. I am enjoying not "tasting" as clearly though because then I have no temptation to overeat. I am praying to keep this weight off that I lost. :-) So far so good.

My garden is doing very well except I need to transplant my broccoli. I hope to get to that this week once the kids are at school and I have a relaxing window of time to get it done.

My devotional today was:
Hebrews 4:16 (New International Version)

Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Amen!

See you all again soon .....

PS Please pray Josh may have an ear infection.