Another day closer .....

I woke up today with a headache - I think the same one I had when I went to sleep. I can't complain though since I rarely get them so I went back to bed for about 45 min and it went away! Then I called the Chiropractor. I guess I owe him a lot. I told him that today and thanked him.

I went to him in September because my neck and back were bothering me. He told me "There is something up with your neck" and that got me searching. I started at the Allergist since I had had a kind rough throat and was hoarse for a while. I even thought maybe I had strep but that wasn't it. It took me 2 months to actually go see the ENT since I was scared but my glands were swollen and by that point I was so uncomfortable. The rest in history Dr Taylor rocks and knew exactly what is was - well a tumor.

Someone had asked me about whether my family was eating with me. I share some of my food (mainly the stews since that is what my family really likes) however since the normal human body needs iodine it wouldn't be safe for them to always eat with me. What is hard is staying on my diet with chocolate cookies, and yummy food all around me. At least I can smell it and enjoy sseing others enjoying their food. I also know this is only for a short time so it makes it bareable (sp?) It really isn't so bad. I really enjoy the special brownies Jackie made me and I have my peanut butter cookies (only unsalted PB, sugar and egg whites). I love PB so that holds me over as a treat and the fresh fruit. I splurged on fruit. And God is sooo good. Sam worked really hard and had some overtime which is paying for the extra needs - higher groceries than normal since we have to make 2 meals instead of one and mine all has to be fresh, non processed etc.

I am so grateful to our church who have been bringing meals every other day to sustain us. They are so selfless and we really appreciate the support and the prayer. I know I am sailing through this because of them and God's grace.

I pray now to finish well, and for my family. I pray that Sam would be lifted up as he is holding everything together at work and home and will be even more so next week. I pray a blessing on Breanna also who is holding down the the fort and helping with Joshua.

Today the sun came out after the beautiful rain yesterday and it is a new day. Praise the LORD for new beginnings.

Blessings and love to you all.

By the way I would like to offer up prayers for my friends who are also going through very tough times. One is recovering from major surgery, another might have ovarian cancer, my brothers close friend has stage 4 lung cancer. The list is endless, so many burdens that each of us carry every day. I pray for each and every one of you as the Holy Spirit leads me and intervenes. See I don't need to know the details because God knows everything. And He knows I can't keep that many details in my pea brain right now, but He knows the need and I pray to be faithful to go to HIM in prayer often and ask for all of you.

I pray HE will teach me humility, to loose me of my pride and not to take life for granted and to remember to love all others as He loves them, unconditionally as well as the other lessons that are so much harder for me like being a better wife and parent to my kids. I know I am lacking but I have a tender heart and pray to learn to do better. I am taking each day at a time sometimes each hour and pray that you all do the same. Ask Jesus to lift you up and He will! He is so tender and merciful! Have a wonderful day and "see" you all again soon!

I have to add a PS about God's sovernty and timing! If I had done this by my timing, I would have had the iodine this week, which would have probably sent me into a deep depression seeing as how it has rained most of the day and is truly gray and gloomy. As it is I can actually get out and still do small trips to the store and get gas and such. So next week will be so much better when the sun is back again or ata least not as crazy and this week. Thank You God for your will not mine!