Change is in the air....

My friend's post got me thinking - God moves us... to surrender the comforts of the present for something fresh. Letting go of the familiar and embracing the foreign. Relinquishing the now for the new. Why is that letting go so difficult? Because He loves us and wants us to rely on Him alone. We only grow when we are broken. Change is coming and I am ready ... I just pray I do well.

It has been extremely stressful lately and my body is showing it. Our daughter is graduating from High School and we made the decision to home school our son next year. Talk about change! Phew! I am really looking forward to home schooling and I have to be encouraged and will be turnig to my friends and other home schoolers for incite when it is tough. I am so thankful for the very wise words from Debbie Beyer who told me it is all about Faith, Facts amd Fun! That will be my mantra next year.

So cancer update: my hair is still falling out but it seemed to slow down a little bit. I am not bald yet and it seems to be alittle everywhere so my friends say it is not noticable! :-)  I love my friends~ I can only imagine had I had chemo what I would have looked like!

I have still been having pressure in my left ear (since before the surgery), some pain and very often popping. My surgeon didn't think it was a big deal. But now I have a cold (and maybe need antibiotics) we shall see if the Airborne tablets can clear up my sinuses and also my ears ! Surprisingly my immune system has not been compromised with all I have been through. If anything Josh, who is my 2nd grade germ magnet, hasn't shared much with me so God has really been blessing me with good health. Thank you God and all of you faithful friends for your continued prayers!

Father's Day is upon us and I am so glad to have my Father in Heaven who is perfect and reminds me that we are human and will never be perfect but are forgiven and that is so awesome!

I pray all you Fathers will be blessed this weekend and thank you for the tough job you all have! Even though our kids might not show it or say it enough I know they appreciate you and love you like us wives! You rock!

This is the Day..... Thank God for Mothers (and Fathers)!

This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it. ~ Psalm 118:24

Thank you God for letting me be a mother twice! What a blessing and how much the experience teaches me and stretches me every day!

As a cancer survivor, I am forever reminded Life could be so much worse as I see the suffering around me. Lord I lift up my friends to you who are battling all sorts of illnesses and pray for healing. I praise you from sparing me from Cancer at least for now. Thank you Lord!

I sruggling everyday with the side effects from the synthroid and the fact the Dr wants me to continue to increase it. But my suffering is far from that from those around me. It puts it into perspective. I truly have nothing to compain about and ask for forgiveness constantly. Who am I to complain? What more do I deserve?

My heart pounds with anxiety at night along wiht night sweats that often prevent me from getting rest. I "sleep" but with so much tossing and turning I am not sure if you could call it that. My hair continues to fallout in handfulls, and between the weight gain and water retention, I am back up 3+ lbs in one week. Sam is a saint for what he has to deal with, with me. The worse part for me is the bouts of lack of clarity in thought. The Dr said to be patient and that it would get better when the hormone levels are correct. But I am doubtful. As I increase I only see more problems but less.

So long story short I went from 100 mg to 125 mg and was only able to do this twice last week and I felt so bad I stopped. I get so tired on a whim that I am unable to keep my eyes open. But as soon as I return home I hit the bed fast. Yesterday I had a power nap - I was out for 30-40 minutes and it felt like the whole night. It is strange I have energy but not stamina.

But good news my contract was extended so I still get to work from home! I love my team and am very excited so thank you Lord for providing! And I will be working on some other projects for a friend too!

Please pray with us on options for school next year. We want the Lord's will but we are being pulled toward home schooling again so thank you for your prayers.

God bless you and have a great weekend and Mother's Day!

Hanging in there.....

Hi all - it has been a while since I updated my Blog so I thought I should give a progress report. I had my blood work done again last week and I am "close" to the desired amount of thyroid. With this being said, I have many side effects / symptoms again which doesn't thrill me. I am anxious, have a hard time falling asleep at night and my heart races, night sweats and my thoughts race too. I find my thoughts are not clear and I am just anxious with the kind of "dread and gloom" type thoughts. I don't like that at all. I like to be a positive and not dwell on teh what ifs but I find myslef doing that and it concerns me a bit.

From the feminie side point (so guys skip this paragraph) ..........................
my cycle is almost non existant. I was 31 days and then barely spotted and about 2 days before that - at about 28 days - my hair began falling out in hand fulls. So I will be following up with my Dr yet again.

According to the bloodwork I need to increase my dose "a bit" so she has me now on 125 mg. I only increased it 25 since yesterday and then only once every other day since I do not like how I am feeling. The routine is to take the bloodwork every month yet my timing is perhaps off. It always coincides with my cycle so I wonder if I should change that... again a question for my Dr.

Other than that we have been mountain biking again and I love that! I stll have the twitch in my cheek although the burning sensation in my throat is getting better. The ENT thought it was a nerve thing and should go away with time. I also have pulsing in my muslces and a pounding heart at times but usually at night so I am trying to see if I modify my diet if that will help (no sugar, etc after 5 pm).

For my muscles I have been trying to eat a banana daily for potasium and keep up my calcium and take a suppliment for magnesium. I think this is helping but I am still watching it.

I also bought Red Rice Yeast to help with the cholesterol but no results yet to see if it is working or not. Now that I have reached my potential levels or am very close I believe I can start looking at other things to see what will best help with symptoms.

I have been spreading the word to all women I see about thyroid and getting it checked. I also suggest to write down in a calendar when you feel a drop or symptoms each month and see if it cycles. Then schedule your blood work on that day. If your thyroid has a ebb and flow effect with going between hypo and hyper- throid it is hard to detect and could go unnoticed.

One friend I have was experiencing similar symptoms like I was and she is young. Her Drs told her also that she had vertigo, etc. It turns out she has a cyst on her thyroid. So please ladies have them check! :-)

I was sent this poem from a friend today and I would like to share it with you all!

My Prayer


Oh Lord, my God, how great You are.
You saved me from myself,
Erased all of my sin and shame.
For the glory of Your Holy name.

Now, my Lord,I give you praise,
As the one of everlasting days.
All power, might, and love is Yours.
You are the one who I adore.

Christ, my God, please grant me strength
To make it through all trials I face.
Give me peace, and joy, and more from You.
So I may always glorify You.

Finally, just one request,
Do I still have yet to ask.
I know my heart and will, oh Lord,
But please, oh please God... give me Yours.

Amen

One step at a time....

Since I had been going to my new dorctor I have been feeling pretty good. I can always tell when my hormones drop though becasue I get VERY tired and my hair falls out in handfulls. I have to wait until April 22 to go for the blood test and then they will probably increase my synthroid amount.

I need to get Joshua tested for hypothyroidism also. His ears are freezing cold most days and I donot believe it is circulation as he runs around a lot. He also has my allergies to grass which makes it hard to breathe.

My study verse today is:  ~ 1 Timothy 2:1

I am praying the Lord heal him from those things.

I urge you, first of all, to pray for all people. Ask God to help them; intercede on their behalf, and give thanks for them.


I am praying for Sam and his stress, my health, my firends who need miracles and healing for Krohns, vertigo, cancer, and the list goes on and on! You are all in my prayers dear friends!

Have a great day and talk to you again soon after my blood test.

Just plain tired...

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THIS TIRED?

Well yes I have not been sleeping like I should so I have been this tired lately! :-)

So with that I will say good night to you all!

Points to ponder today:

Fire goes out without wood, and quarrels disappear when gossip stops.
~ Proverbs 26:20

A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare.

~ Proverbs 15:1, NLT

Makes you think huh?

Praise the Lord !

I am so happy today. My new Dr called and they have a cancellation next Thursday so I can get in with them. I am really looking forward to workig through all the medicine to see what I can stop taking soon.

I have 3 part time jobs at present and it is too much so I am praying about dropping one and the best part about today is I am going to TEA with my friends to relax and have fun and I NEED it!

Sam is trying to "surprise" me with a little getaway weekend but we need to find a place for Josh to hang out. Both with the stress at his work and then my cancer has wiped us both out. It is not fair for us both to get the wind knocked out of us at the same time... but the Lord is stronger than us and HE can handle it - we just have to give it all to Him!

Todays verse is:
This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all.
~ 1 John 1:5, NLT

I want to stay in the light where it is safe and I am protected. Thank you Lord for your LIGHT and protection through the darkness of this life. Amen

Washed with Rain.....

Yes it's me checking in after so long. Sorry it has been a while. I have been doing very well and very busy. Last Friday night was the big 4th grade fundraiser of which I am in charge of getting "stuff" for the silent auction. I didn't count this year but I am sure I had close to 100 items. Phew. I did great until Thursday afternoon when I hit bottom and felt like the wind had been knocked out of the sails. I couldn't wrap another basket. Thank goodness I took all my stuff to the school and 3 ladies were there to help me. I don't know how much they made but I am thinking we did ok despite the economy. During this time I was still struggling with the synthroid. I fonally got my Dr to change it to a 50 mg version with no colors or additives.

Then I had a few another hiccup with the high cholesteral med. Actually it was a big hiccup - it was giving me an asthma attack every night about 1 hr after taking it coupled with anxiety - probably from the fact that I couldn't breathe.... Since the symptoms were progressing I just stopping taking it on Saturday night and call Monday morning for a new kind. The good news is that is seems to be working and so far no allergy or asthma attacks. Phew. I like breathing!

Today's bible study was on 2 Samuel 19:8-43. Man there is a lot there about David's return to Jerusalem and the throne. So much for us to learn about and to apply to our own lives. I am really grateful to Mary and the others who are a part of the study. It is awesome. If any ladies are free Tuesday mornings, you are free to join us! It is really amazing and God is speaking to our hearts.

Todays devotional was:

Psalm 27:1    
Of David.

The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

My awesome hubby just got home so I am off for some family time! See you all later......