Praise the Lord my taste is returning! It is so nice to actually taste chocolate again but that of course has downsides! So even though Doc said 2-3 months it looks like it will be only about 1 month for me.
The Doc increased my synthroid to 75 now. It was hard to get to sleep last night so we shall see how it works out. So far I am nauseous again and getting hot in teh face despite the 50 degrees outside. They say to give it time so I am going home to rest and give it time.
This is my devotional today. Psalm 62:1-2
My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Life is great! Have a great day everyone!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Feeling better today without meds....
On Saturday I forgot to take my meds and I felt really great. That is to say many of them but not all. I still took my synthroid at 5 am.
So my question is - who do I ge to listen to me on whether I need the others or not?! Doc took blood last week on Thursday and I am still waiting for the email follow up on what the next step is. Praying my cholesterol will be perfect and that I can stop taking some of this stuff soon. Oh and the synthroid will be perfect too. I don't want more.
AND praise the LORD - my taste is coming back! It must be the big hug I got from Josh and Sam last night that did it!
Hugs to you all!
So my question is - who do I ge to listen to me on whether I need the others or not?! Doc took blood last week on Thursday and I am still waiting for the email follow up on what the next step is. Praying my cholesterol will be perfect and that I can stop taking some of this stuff soon. Oh and the synthroid will be perfect too. I don't want more.
AND praise the LORD - my taste is coming back! It must be the big hug I got from Josh and Sam last night that did it!
Hugs to you all!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
I forgot again....
Due to situations beyond our control, Sam and I were woken up twice last night and so neither of us got very good sleep. I heard my 6 am alarm and was able to take the synthroid but then fell asleep again and forgot all my other medicine for the rest of the day! Ugh! I can't take it now so I am just skipping it and praying that will be ok since I only have to wait another few hours before I take the next dose.
This schedule with the meds is next to impossible, should life happen. I am not sure how I can make it happen other than to keep my phone alarm set to buzz me everytime I need to take something.
How do normal people do this? It is enough to make a person crazy. Sigh... all in good time as I am reminded.
Today was a nice day despite the rain and no medication! lol ! It was very productive with some cleaning, laundry and weeding in the garden. I even switched out the front garden hose and trimmed my hedges that were a bit over grown. humm kinda makes you wonder if I need all the meds they have me on. I can't wait to hear back from the Dr about my blood results. I sure would like it if they told me I didn't need any of them anymore! :-)
I am really excited about church tomorrow. I will be leading worship and singing withthe worship team again. It has been almost 2 months since I sang. I pray I don't lose my voice since I haven't sang for that long yet and I did get a little hoarse again after rehearsal.
Well I am off to get some of the rest my body needs. Have a great weeekend everyone!
Hugs to you all!
By the way did I mention the Dr said my taste buds could take 2 months before they decide to return? I am praying for my friend in the hospital and another who has breast cancer and going to start her 2nd course of chemo this week. I am also praying for my friend's hands and feet to be healed and another friend who need their pain to go away! Lord I lift up my many friends to you. Please care for them and give them your peace.
This schedule with the meds is next to impossible, should life happen. I am not sure how I can make it happen other than to keep my phone alarm set to buzz me everytime I need to take something.
How do normal people do this? It is enough to make a person crazy. Sigh... all in good time as I am reminded.
Today was a nice day despite the rain and no medication! lol ! It was very productive with some cleaning, laundry and weeding in the garden. I even switched out the front garden hose and trimmed my hedges that were a bit over grown. humm kinda makes you wonder if I need all the meds they have me on. I can't wait to hear back from the Dr about my blood results. I sure would like it if they told me I didn't need any of them anymore! :-)
I am really excited about church tomorrow. I will be leading worship and singing withthe worship team again. It has been almost 2 months since I sang. I pray I don't lose my voice since I haven't sang for that long yet and I did get a little hoarse again after rehearsal.
Well I am off to get some of the rest my body needs. Have a great weeekend everyone!
Hugs to you all!
By the way did I mention the Dr said my taste buds could take 2 months before they decide to return? I am praying for my friend in the hospital and another who has breast cancer and going to start her 2nd course of chemo this week. I am also praying for my friend's hands and feet to be healed and another friend who need their pain to go away! Lord I lift up my many friends to you. Please care for them and give them your peace.
Friday, February 19, 2010
In Christ alone will I glory ....
Yesterday was not a good day. Everything that could happen did in all our lives. It was very tiring. I am so glad it is over and today is a new day (even if it is a half day for Joshua!) I wish I could go to sleep fora day then I would have some strength back. This weekend will be crazy too because 1) it is suppose to rain 2) baseball practice is canceled 3) Sam will be gone at Umpire training until 4:30 pm and I just want to sleep - lol not going to happen.
My follow up appt with the Dr was disappointing. He told me the radiaiton is gone (can't be - most of it sure) but it was as if he said it enough times he could speak it into being. Then he told me that he knew for a fact that I was not taking enough of the synthroid and that he will need to increase it even though I feel great and have no side effects. Then he wondered why my blood pressure was up. Talk about stress..... So anyway they took blood and he will email me the results and next steps. Next appt in 2 months.
I heard this song on KLOVE on the way home: Brian Littrell - In Christ Alone
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand
Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord
Thank you Lord!
My follow up appt with the Dr was disappointing. He told me the radiaiton is gone (can't be - most of it sure) but it was as if he said it enough times he could speak it into being. Then he told me that he knew for a fact that I was not taking enough of the synthroid and that he will need to increase it even though I feel great and have no side effects. Then he wondered why my blood pressure was up. Talk about stress..... So anyway they took blood and he will email me the results and next steps. Next appt in 2 months.
I heard this song on KLOVE on the way home: Brian Littrell - In Christ Alone
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand
Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord
Thank you Lord!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Body scan follow up....
I am off to my Dr appt this morning to follow up on the full body scan. I did already get the phone call that "it was as "anticipated" and we will see you at the follow up." I assume that meant it was all ok but I guess I will find out today.
I received an email from a close friend from high school that I found again recently. She is going through chemo right now. She had breast cancer when I had thyroid cancer. We were probably in hospitals at the same time. I lift her up in prayer. I just don't get how many people are affected by cancer now a days. I know we live in a fallen world but it is crazy. It has really given me a different perspective on keeping my body as healthy as possible so I can do God's work until He calls me home. He expects me to do my part.
Dear friends I am lifting you all up in prayer ~ so many need health restored, some need family or financial help, the list is really endless. God never says we won't have troubles, He only says we won't go it alone.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”- Romans 8:38-39
Thank you Lord!
PS The Dr took blood and will let me know how I am doing. He thinks I will need more of the synthroid but I feel great I don't want anymore. I guess the downside is my cholesterol could be way too high so please pray it is low enough I can stay where I am. Thanks!
I received an email from a close friend from high school that I found again recently. She is going through chemo right now. She had breast cancer when I had thyroid cancer. We were probably in hospitals at the same time. I lift her up in prayer. I just don't get how many people are affected by cancer now a days. I know we live in a fallen world but it is crazy. It has really given me a different perspective on keeping my body as healthy as possible so I can do God's work until He calls me home. He expects me to do my part.
Dear friends I am lifting you all up in prayer ~ so many need health restored, some need family or financial help, the list is really endless. God never says we won't have troubles, He only says we won't go it alone.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”- Romans 8:38-39
Thank you Lord!
PS The Dr took blood and will let me know how I am doing. He thinks I will need more of the synthroid but I feel great I don't want anymore. I guess the downside is my cholesterol could be way too high so please pray it is low enough I can stay where I am. Thanks!
Monday, February 15, 2010
Is this really my body?
After many years - well ok I am old :) - of really listening to my body and knowing what works for me - everything is all mixed up again! It is like starting over from scratch. I love some of the new things but it is so trying at times. I have been craving chocolate so I ate some - then this morning I woke up so tired I just wanted to go back to sleep. Why does this always happen on school holidays when I just can't. Sigh....
And then on the extreme no iodine diet I had next to no allergies - dogs didn't even bother me and now I reintroduced dairy and soy, I have the allergies back. That isn't fair. I know I need to embrace this wonderful opportunity and learn what is causing my allergies..... but I LOVE cheese. So unfair...
Oh well it is a good thing so forgive me for the self pity. I say this because I know my mother is reading this! :-) Love you Mom!
All in all I am feeling really normal. No side effects except the funny taste buds but I think every day it gets a little better.
Last night I made garlic pasta with steamed broccolli from my garden and was so excited. It was awesome. Then I made a garden salad from the romaine and a red variety also. It was really fun. My snow peas are beginning to kick it up a notch and the other broccoli plants are starting to all have crowns now too! Hurray! I love brocoli.
I had a really great weekend. Saturday night at the Valentine's party I got to speak German with some friends visiting from Berlin. It was great to have a polical discussion about our 2 countries and the social - econmic impact of the world and then we talked about what marriage is. I pray I didn't hurt anyone's feelings with my views. I was just so excited I remembered most to the vocabulary I needed except for the word selfish - all I could think of was ego. It was quite funny to watch me I am sure struggle trying to remember that word. Oh well. egoistisch; selbstsüchtig - on yeah! I was close! After ummmm 16 years that isn't bad! Wow where does the time go! I really need to go visit my Germany again and see my friends there.
It really got me thinking about how the German people have turned away from God. Many there don't think about God at all - or make time for Him. Once a Christian country is now very lukewarm. Of course there are always exceptions but all those beautiful large churches I ever visited were always empty. It was sad.
No one was even seeking the Lord.
Valentine's Day ~ Many people here and in Europe, I guess all over the world only think about their own happiness. They do not put others happiness before their own happiness. I am sure it is because of this Jesus made it a point to say it so many times.
Mark 12:28-29 ~ The Greatest Commandment
One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?"
"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these."
What joy it is to love others as we would love ourselves although I think I love others more than myself but I am working on the equal part. :-) Thank you God for such wisdom and JOY!
And then on the extreme no iodine diet I had next to no allergies - dogs didn't even bother me and now I reintroduced dairy and soy, I have the allergies back. That isn't fair. I know I need to embrace this wonderful opportunity and learn what is causing my allergies..... but I LOVE cheese. So unfair...
Oh well it is a good thing so forgive me for the self pity. I say this because I know my mother is reading this! :-) Love you Mom!
All in all I am feeling really normal. No side effects except the funny taste buds but I think every day it gets a little better.
Last night I made garlic pasta with steamed broccolli from my garden and was so excited. It was awesome. Then I made a garden salad from the romaine and a red variety also. It was really fun. My snow peas are beginning to kick it up a notch and the other broccoli plants are starting to all have crowns now too! Hurray! I love brocoli.
I had a really great weekend. Saturday night at the Valentine's party I got to speak German with some friends visiting from Berlin. It was great to have a polical discussion about our 2 countries and the social - econmic impact of the world and then we talked about what marriage is. I pray I didn't hurt anyone's feelings with my views. I was just so excited I remembered most to the vocabulary I needed except for the word selfish - all I could think of was ego. It was quite funny to watch me I am sure struggle trying to remember that word. Oh well. egoistisch; selbstsüchtig - on yeah! I was close! After ummmm 16 years that isn't bad! Wow where does the time go! I really need to go visit my Germany again and see my friends there.
It really got me thinking about how the German people have turned away from God. Many there don't think about God at all - or make time for Him. Once a Christian country is now very lukewarm. Of course there are always exceptions but all those beautiful large churches I ever visited were always empty. It was sad.
No one was even seeking the Lord.
Valentine's Day ~ Many people here and in Europe, I guess all over the world only think about their own happiness. They do not put others happiness before their own happiness. I am sure it is because of this Jesus made it a point to say it so many times.
Mark 12:28-29 ~ The Greatest Commandment
One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?"
"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these."
What joy it is to love others as we would love ourselves although I think I love others more than myself but I am working on the equal part. :-) Thank you God for such wisdom and JOY!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Valentine - What is true love?
“This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.”- 1 John 4:10
Today was a sweet day but busy day. Thank you Lord for the wonderful family I have to share good times with! I am feeling good and so happy to be back with people again! I love giving and getting hugs!
Great day at church too - the book of Daniel is so full of great things.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Today was a sweet day but busy day. Thank you Lord for the wonderful family I have to share good times with! I am feeling good and so happy to be back with people again! I love giving and getting hugs!
Great day at church too - the book of Daniel is so full of great things.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Clear skies and chilly ......
I think I may be getting Josh's cold. My sinuses are not happy but that is ok. I had prayed that if I got it - to wait until the bad radiation was gone! And my prayer was answered. I have no fever so I am not sure what it is but I have been taking sinus stuff and it helps.
2 days ago I began taking a vitamin supplement for women and I have felt worse so I am going to stop taking that and look today for another brand. This one had lots of extra stuff in it like iodine. I just pray for wisdom to learn what I need to do for my health.
I am reminded today not to forget to lift up those who are really suffering. One in particular is VeggieTales writer/director Tim Hodge is in a health-insurance bind caring for his son Matt, in a coma since an August 2008 accident. I just learned there is a list of art auctions on eBay to help out! Here is the link for more info:
http://www.helpthehodges.com/
Compounding the Hodges’ financial crisis and mounting medical bills, Matt’s need for constant care affects Tim’s ability to work full time. The National Cartoonist Society Foundation has put together a series of eBay auctions to raise funds for support of the Hodge family. Ebay unfortunately removed all of their auctions wihtout them knowing so stay tuned. Please join me in praying for the complete restoration of Matt and his healing.
Lord please give strength to those in need, those who need healing and joy brought back to their lives. Thank you that you care about every detail in our lives and for your provision.
Matthew 10:29-31 (New International Version)
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
2 days ago I began taking a vitamin supplement for women and I have felt worse so I am going to stop taking that and look today for another brand. This one had lots of extra stuff in it like iodine. I just pray for wisdom to learn what I need to do for my health.
I am reminded today not to forget to lift up those who are really suffering. One in particular is VeggieTales writer/director Tim Hodge is in a health-insurance bind caring for his son Matt, in a coma since an August 2008 accident. I just learned there is a list of art auctions on eBay to help out! Here is the link for more info:
http://www.helpthehodges.com/
Compounding the Hodges’ financial crisis and mounting medical bills, Matt’s need for constant care affects Tim’s ability to work full time. The National Cartoonist Society Foundation has put together a series of eBay auctions to raise funds for support of the Hodge family. Ebay unfortunately removed all of their auctions wihtout them knowing so stay tuned. Please join me in praying for the complete restoration of Matt and his healing.
Lord please give strength to those in need, those who need healing and joy brought back to their lives. Thank you that you care about every detail in our lives and for your provision.
Matthew 10:29-31 (New International Version)
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Anticipating Valentine's Day
Sam surprised Josh and I this morning with Valentine's donuts from Mary's. What a dellicious treat! He spoils us! So we drove up to Del Mar and met him for lunch! It was very nice!
I was reminded today of when my husband proposed. Then Sam came home and told me he almost submitted our story in a radio contest with KLOVE. I remember when "You've Got Mail" was coming out in the theaters and a People Magazine reporter called me to interview me for our story. Sam and I did meet on the Internet but not through AOL so People wasn't interested after 2 phone interviews. LOL Oh the memories!
It is amazing what things you remember or even just savor when the TV is off and there is quiet to listen to each other. I feel like I have spent too much time running away from quiet when I really enjoy it now. Sure I am a people person and love fellowship / friends, but quiet is nice too.
Tomorrow is our Valentine's Day party and I can't wait. I have never been into Valentine's Day as I perceive it as just a Hallmark marketing ploy but this year I am embracing how I am reflecting on Love and Relationships.
Our women's bible study these past few months has been on David's life in 1st and 2nd Samuel. It is convicting me about how our role as a parent is to raise our children to be good adults - Godly men and women, respectful husbands / wives and loving parents. We want our children to respect authority, to love God and to treat others with respect and love. I was reminded today how God doesn't have to remind us to love our children - we do that without nudging. But it is the tough parts - the disciplining - that we need reminding of - correcting the wrong behavior, being compassionate but not backing down and also being consistant. It is a diffficult task and one that David failed. I am comforted by that. David let his sons disrespect him and ultimately paid dearly for his lack of discipline with them. So often I reflect on how I fail as a parent and how I need to be better but I am encouraged that each day is new and I can do better. I am so glad that God is not through with me yet!
God doesn't play the blame game. He tells us only He alone is perfect so we cannot think we are and only by embracing our mistakes and owning them can we learn from them and become better. It was great Sam and I had a talk with Josh about that tonight and it was very sweet. We are blessed to have been given our 2 kids. They are so different and teach us so much!
But after a very long day (Josh didn't have school today) I am exhausted. So I am off to sleep and will ponder these things and more tomorrow.
I was reminded today of when my husband proposed. Then Sam came home and told me he almost submitted our story in a radio contest with KLOVE. I remember when "You've Got Mail" was coming out in the theaters and a People Magazine reporter called me to interview me for our story. Sam and I did meet on the Internet but not through AOL so People wasn't interested after 2 phone interviews. LOL Oh the memories!
It is amazing what things you remember or even just savor when the TV is off and there is quiet to listen to each other. I feel like I have spent too much time running away from quiet when I really enjoy it now. Sure I am a people person and love fellowship / friends, but quiet is nice too.
Tomorrow is our Valentine's Day party and I can't wait. I have never been into Valentine's Day as I perceive it as just a Hallmark marketing ploy but this year I am embracing how I am reflecting on Love and Relationships.
Our women's bible study these past few months has been on David's life in 1st and 2nd Samuel. It is convicting me about how our role as a parent is to raise our children to be good adults - Godly men and women, respectful husbands / wives and loving parents. We want our children to respect authority, to love God and to treat others with respect and love. I was reminded today how God doesn't have to remind us to love our children - we do that without nudging. But it is the tough parts - the disciplining - that we need reminding of - correcting the wrong behavior, being compassionate but not backing down and also being consistant. It is a diffficult task and one that David failed. I am comforted by that. David let his sons disrespect him and ultimately paid dearly for his lack of discipline with them. So often I reflect on how I fail as a parent and how I need to be better but I am encouraged that each day is new and I can do better. I am so glad that God is not through with me yet!
God doesn't play the blame game. He tells us only He alone is perfect so we cannot think we are and only by embracing our mistakes and owning them can we learn from them and become better. It was great Sam and I had a talk with Josh about that tonight and it was very sweet. We are blessed to have been given our 2 kids. They are so different and teach us so much!
But after a very long day (Josh didn't have school today) I am exhausted. So I am off to sleep and will ponder these things and more tomorrow.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Beautiful day but cold winds blow....
I was reminded today that even on beautiful mornings the cold winds can blow. I have to stay steadfast and solid in my faith and truth. A funny analogy but eating can be like that too. If you want to lose weight you must endure the daily challenges and hold true to what you know is best for you. You have to deny the simple pleasures for here and now and hold to what you know is right. I learned this lesson when I reintroduced chocolate back into my diet. Not a good thing. You would think I was 13 again.
I learned so much about my body through this no salt or iodine diet. It was so strict yet it was really good for my body. Now that I am back to the fast pace and eating junk my body is rebelling. Food for thought..... It is hard to make daily sacrifices to keep life slow - not to take on too much and to stay focused on what is important.
Colossians 2:8
See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.
That is what I am pondering today.
My Doctor's office called today with the messgae that the scan looked "good" and as anticipated and I didn't need to see the Dr for a month or so. I told them I already had an appt for the 25th so I guess I can ask my questions then.
I am still doing very well on the new dose of medicine. I feel normal and my weight is staying the same. I still have the starnge taste in my mouth that dissapates a bit when I chew gum. I think this will go away over time. I consider it still a blessing so I am not worried about this. I am however praying for my singing voice to return fully. I haven't been able to sing for an extended amount of time yet and I also don't have the stamina or volume or range like I did before. My voice gets hoarse quickly. So I just need wisdom to know how to get there and when not to push it.
I also can't wait to get back to bike riding but I just need to fnd the time when it is not bitter cold. The last time I rode I thought I got frostbite in my finger tips so I had to turn back. So I guess I am praying for some warmer weather although we sure can't complain compared to the rest of the US!
I thank you Lord daily for your provision and for my step dad's surgery that went well!
I learned so much about my body through this no salt or iodine diet. It was so strict yet it was really good for my body. Now that I am back to the fast pace and eating junk my body is rebelling. Food for thought..... It is hard to make daily sacrifices to keep life slow - not to take on too much and to stay focused on what is important.
Colossians 2:8
See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.
That is what I am pondering today.
My Doctor's office called today with the messgae that the scan looked "good" and as anticipated and I didn't need to see the Dr for a month or so. I told them I already had an appt for the 25th so I guess I can ask my questions then.
I am still doing very well on the new dose of medicine. I feel normal and my weight is staying the same. I still have the starnge taste in my mouth that dissapates a bit when I chew gum. I think this will go away over time. I consider it still a blessing so I am not worried about this. I am however praying for my singing voice to return fully. I haven't been able to sing for an extended amount of time yet and I also don't have the stamina or volume or range like I did before. My voice gets hoarse quickly. So I just need wisdom to know how to get there and when not to push it.
I also can't wait to get back to bike riding but I just need to fnd the time when it is not bitter cold. The last time I rode I thought I got frostbite in my finger tips so I had to turn back. So I guess I am praying for some warmer weather although we sure can't complain compared to the rest of the US!
I thank you Lord daily for your provision and for my step dad's surgery that went well!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Only one side effect ....
This morning I was reminded that the battle belongs to the Lord.
2 Corinthians 10:4 ~ The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.
So many times in my life I had felt so convicted of a wrong doing by someone else. It was not right, not just, didn't they see it was wrong... I used to be bothered by it and now I take it to the Lord and His justice is so much better than mine. I have seen Him move mountains (yes we Italians are stubborn and don't move for anyone but the Lord! and I mean how He has changed my heart many times.) Many times in our unhappiness it is our perspective that needs a shift and then JOY is back. The Lord works it out if we just ask Him for help.
I thank the Lord for allowing me to see His work in so many ways! I am so blessed when I hear people say they changed their minds and are going to do the wise choice. I have seen the Lord use people who don't accept Him as their Lord and Saviour yet they still do the right thing. I am so glad the battle belongs to the Lord. His justice is far better than anything I could ever do. Thank you Lord!
I feel really good today. I am ready to face the day. The only side effect I have now is my taste is still off but I just keep chewing gum and it helps clear it up. I really do love not having to overeat. I pray He allows me to keep this!
Today I have to get Josh in to see a dentist as his teeth shifted and now one of his fillings is sharp and cutting his tongue. After that it is back to school. The field trip to Indian Hills has been postponed another week due to the rain. I love this rain! I am about ready to harvest my first broccoli crown and I can't wait! :-) Thank you Lord! What a gift from the earth!
Tomorrow is the Valentines party for Josh's school and then this weekend for us! It will be lots of fun. All the men at our church spoil the ladies. We have a potluck and only the men can bring food and goodies. And they bring really good stuff! :-) I can't wait!
Now that my radiation is low enough I am looking forward to hanging out with friends again. I have really missed that. I also have a date with my closet to give it a makeover as well as my the weeds in my backyard! I have about half of the yard cleared and am ready to get the rest cleared so I can reseed soon.
I am praying for my step dad and his eye surgery and for so many people with up coming hospital stays or just illness or hardship. I especially am lifting up the little ones who were born without organs today that are alive and doing well despite their circumstances but they need a miracle. Lord I pray for the miracle of renewed life for them and I pray for their parents who never know how long they have them for. It is heart breaking. Give them peace and confort as they wait on your provision. Lord God you alone are the only ones who can restore and heal their bodies. What a blessing they are to all of us that know them! Lord bless them with JOY every day.
Hvae a blessed day everyone!
2 Corinthians 10:4 ~ The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.
So many times in my life I had felt so convicted of a wrong doing by someone else. It was not right, not just, didn't they see it was wrong... I used to be bothered by it and now I take it to the Lord and His justice is so much better than mine. I have seen Him move mountains (yes we Italians are stubborn and don't move for anyone but the Lord! and I mean how He has changed my heart many times.) Many times in our unhappiness it is our perspective that needs a shift and then JOY is back. The Lord works it out if we just ask Him for help.
I thank the Lord for allowing me to see His work in so many ways! I am so blessed when I hear people say they changed their minds and are going to do the wise choice. I have seen the Lord use people who don't accept Him as their Lord and Saviour yet they still do the right thing. I am so glad the battle belongs to the Lord. His justice is far better than anything I could ever do. Thank you Lord!
I feel really good today. I am ready to face the day. The only side effect I have now is my taste is still off but I just keep chewing gum and it helps clear it up. I really do love not having to overeat. I pray He allows me to keep this!
Today I have to get Josh in to see a dentist as his teeth shifted and now one of his fillings is sharp and cutting his tongue. After that it is back to school. The field trip to Indian Hills has been postponed another week due to the rain. I love this rain! I am about ready to harvest my first broccoli crown and I can't wait! :-) Thank you Lord! What a gift from the earth!
Tomorrow is the Valentines party for Josh's school and then this weekend for us! It will be lots of fun. All the men at our church spoil the ladies. We have a potluck and only the men can bring food and goodies. And they bring really good stuff! :-) I can't wait!
Now that my radiation is low enough I am looking forward to hanging out with friends again. I have really missed that. I also have a date with my closet to give it a makeover as well as my the weeds in my backyard! I have about half of the yard cleared and am ready to get the rest cleared so I can reseed soon.
I am praying for my step dad and his eye surgery and for so many people with up coming hospital stays or just illness or hardship. I especially am lifting up the little ones who were born without organs today that are alive and doing well despite their circumstances but they need a miracle. Lord I pray for the miracle of renewed life for them and I pray for their parents who never know how long they have them for. It is heart breaking. Give them peace and confort as they wait on your provision. Lord God you alone are the only ones who can restore and heal their bodies. What a blessing they are to all of us that know them! Lord bless them with JOY every day.
Hvae a blessed day everyone!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
What a wonderful world...
Romans 10:09 That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
What a beautiful world! I slept really well and Sam "moved back in". At first I was tense and worried about him but then when I relaxed, I slept really well and the whole night through! Hurray. I woke up just as my alarm was about to go off at 6 am. So back to the grind... Got Sam and Bre off, and now Josh and I are about to get him to school, then bible study and then a little shopping.
The full body scan yesterday morning showed that I only have radiation in the thyroid on the left and a bit in the liver as it is processing it through. I was really encouraged to see it is almost all gone. What is left will only be at about 25 % of the strength as it was 2 weeks ago. So I think I can return to life again fully by this time next week at only 10 %. Hurray! I miss being around the kids and other people. It will feel good to relax around people again!
So off to school - have a great day!
What a beautiful world! I slept really well and Sam "moved back in". At first I was tense and worried about him but then when I relaxed, I slept really well and the whole night through! Hurray. I woke up just as my alarm was about to go off at 6 am. So back to the grind... Got Sam and Bre off, and now Josh and I are about to get him to school, then bible study and then a little shopping.
The full body scan yesterday morning showed that I only have radiation in the thyroid on the left and a bit in the liver as it is processing it through. I was really encouraged to see it is almost all gone. What is left will only be at about 25 % of the strength as it was 2 weeks ago. So I think I can return to life again fully by this time next week at only 10 %. Hurray! I miss being around the kids and other people. It will feel good to relax around people again!
So off to school - have a great day!
Monday, February 8, 2010
Trials develop perseverance......
I slept well again last night but I woke up at 3:30 am again. It was cold out so I just rested and prayed until about 5 am when I decided to get up. Todays devotional is from James.
James 1:2-7
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
Trials develop perseverance...... That is something to ponder. I am off this morning to get Josh to school (please continue to pray for him as his cold is really holding on) and then off to the hospital for my body scan. I pray for wisdom to know what the colors mean and that my body can shed the radiation quicker! I know you can't rush the Lord. Don't we always think we know better.... I just miss holding my husband and kids. They didn't tell me it would be a month. That is a very long time to a 7 year old.
But I will be on the table for about 1- 1.5 hours so I have lots of time to pray for those in need. So I will be lifting you all up in prayer as the Holy Spirit leads me today! May you all be blessed.
I doubt I will know anything as I then will schedule a follow up with the Dr to talk about next steps and the findings. So I expect today to be a bit anticlimatic. (sorry if I misspelled that word!)
Have a great day all!
James 1:2-7
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
Trials develop perseverance...... That is something to ponder. I am off this morning to get Josh to school (please continue to pray for him as his cold is really holding on) and then off to the hospital for my body scan. I pray for wisdom to know what the colors mean and that my body can shed the radiation quicker! I know you can't rush the Lord. Don't we always think we know better.... I just miss holding my husband and kids. They didn't tell me it would be a month. That is a very long time to a 7 year old.
But I will be on the table for about 1- 1.5 hours so I have lots of time to pray for those in need. So I will be lifting you all up in prayer as the Holy Spirit leads me today! May you all be blessed.
I doubt I will know anything as I then will schedule a follow up with the Dr to talk about next steps and the findings. So I expect today to be a bit anticlimatic. (sorry if I misspelled that word!)
Have a great day all!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Super Bowl and almost 2 weeks ......
Hurray tomorrow will mark 2 weeks for me since the radiation and that means 2 half lives - so I'll be at 25% of the first amount. That makes me feel really good.
Josh had a melt down and really needed hugs. I gave him a quick one but it really was horrible not to be able to pick him up and cuddle him. He has been fighting a sinus infection / cold for over a week and he is just tired. He has days of just not being hungry because nothing tastes good. I can relate well to that. Last Sunday Sam took him to urgent care and so he has been on antibiotics for the ear infection but he just can't seem to shake this one - and I don't want to get it. I have been praying fervently for the Lord to heal him and protect the rest of us. I need wisdom to know if he just needs to stay home for a week to gather his strength and if so I need strength to nurture him from afar. I so want to just hold him and rock him and tell him it will be ok. It just isn't the same from across the room. Sigh ....
Yesterday was tough because everyone in our family was spent. We were all tired and grumpy. I am so glad today is a new day! It must be the rain and gloomy outside since we rarely get it here in San Diego! :-)
I finally slept pretty well again last night. Or at least longer. I woke up at 5 am instead of 3 am so I am happy. It was ncie though to have quiet and read Genesis chapters 48-50. It is so good to catch up on my bible reading. Our church challenged us to read through the bible in a year. I have never done that but always wanted to so I am catching up and am encouraged I can do this! I haven't been to church in 2 weeks also so it will be good to be back too.
I am looking forward to seeing everyone today. We have agape potluck lunch after church today and then we are going to our friends house to watch the Super Bowl. It will be a fun filled day! :-)
I hope you all have a blessed and wonderful day of fellowship with loved ones!
Please pray for continued peace for my full body scan tomorrow at 8:30 am. I am a little anxious but I do know I need to relax and just get through it. This too shall pass.
Talk to you again soon!
Josh had a melt down and really needed hugs. I gave him a quick one but it really was horrible not to be able to pick him up and cuddle him. He has been fighting a sinus infection / cold for over a week and he is just tired. He has days of just not being hungry because nothing tastes good. I can relate well to that. Last Sunday Sam took him to urgent care and so he has been on antibiotics for the ear infection but he just can't seem to shake this one - and I don't want to get it. I have been praying fervently for the Lord to heal him and protect the rest of us. I need wisdom to know if he just needs to stay home for a week to gather his strength and if so I need strength to nurture him from afar. I so want to just hold him and rock him and tell him it will be ok. It just isn't the same from across the room. Sigh ....
Yesterday was tough because everyone in our family was spent. We were all tired and grumpy. I am so glad today is a new day! It must be the rain and gloomy outside since we rarely get it here in San Diego! :-)
I finally slept pretty well again last night. Or at least longer. I woke up at 5 am instead of 3 am so I am happy. It was ncie though to have quiet and read Genesis chapters 48-50. It is so good to catch up on my bible reading. Our church challenged us to read through the bible in a year. I have never done that but always wanted to so I am catching up and am encouraged I can do this! I haven't been to church in 2 weeks also so it will be good to be back too.
I am looking forward to seeing everyone today. We have agape potluck lunch after church today and then we are going to our friends house to watch the Super Bowl. It will be a fun filled day! :-)
I hope you all have a blessed and wonderful day of fellowship with loved ones!
Please pray for continued peace for my full body scan tomorrow at 8:30 am. I am a little anxious but I do know I need to relax and just get through it. This too shall pass.
Talk to you again soon!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Beautiful rain....
Last night it rained again and boy do we need it in Southern California. My garden is thriving but I wish I had replanted tomatoes. My plants are over a year old and they are really looking old and tired.
It has been almost a week of taking half doeses of synthroid and I have felt the best and most "normal" this week than I have in a very long time. I really can't wait to get back to my moutnain biking again but I am still taking it a bit slow to make sure I have the strength and stamina I need to make it around the lakes again first. I would love to be able to do my 20 miles like I used to before I had my son. Or for us to go as a family in the canyons. That would really be sweet. Sam and I used to ride when we were dating. I can remember going to Laguna and I would call it the Disneyland ride since you rode up hill gradually for a long time but the downhill was like 5 mins of winding and it was a a blast and so worth it! I bet he remembers where it was too. I have no clue - I was following him!
I am a bit anxious about my full body scan on Monday as I fear them finding something they do not expect. But I know it is only Satan playing with my doubts and human-ness and so I will not allow myslef to go there. I won't let him rob my peace or joy. I just remember that nothing surprises the Lord, this is in the plan and I am on the journey wherever it takes me.
I woke up again around 2 am this morning but what was different is I felt fully refreshed. I was always a sleeper and needed 8-10 hours of sleep, sometimes more. Lately I am very perky and only seem to need around 6 hours sometimes even 4 hours works great. What a concept - very strange. (It has allowed me to realized that someone in our neighborhood vaccuums their home at 2 am every morning too!) But I love the peace and quiet that early in the morning. It is so surrene and also dark. Great for prayer and bible study time. So that has been sweet too. It is a wonderful way to start a morning not rushed and refreshed! And not even hungry! What a concept for me. I really like this new me!
My friend who is a radiologist told me that PET scans are truly beautiful with lots of colors so I am looking forward to seeing what colors I am! I wonder if I can get a copy to take home? :-) It sounds like it would be fun to frame!
Today I lift up my friends son's in the hospital for healing, those with cancer for healing, and strength and peace for those dealing with other issues. God knows where you are and what you are going through and He is in control of it all. Thank you God!
Well I will get on with my morning - lots to do and time to do it! Hurray!
Love and greatfulness to all of you in my life sharing the journey with me. Have a wonderful day!
It has been almost a week of taking half doeses of synthroid and I have felt the best and most "normal" this week than I have in a very long time. I really can't wait to get back to my moutnain biking again but I am still taking it a bit slow to make sure I have the strength and stamina I need to make it around the lakes again first. I would love to be able to do my 20 miles like I used to before I had my son. Or for us to go as a family in the canyons. That would really be sweet. Sam and I used to ride when we were dating. I can remember going to Laguna and I would call it the Disneyland ride since you rode up hill gradually for a long time but the downhill was like 5 mins of winding and it was a a blast and so worth it! I bet he remembers where it was too. I have no clue - I was following him!
I am a bit anxious about my full body scan on Monday as I fear them finding something they do not expect. But I know it is only Satan playing with my doubts and human-ness and so I will not allow myslef to go there. I won't let him rob my peace or joy. I just remember that nothing surprises the Lord, this is in the plan and I am on the journey wherever it takes me.
I woke up again around 2 am this morning but what was different is I felt fully refreshed. I was always a sleeper and needed 8-10 hours of sleep, sometimes more. Lately I am very perky and only seem to need around 6 hours sometimes even 4 hours works great. What a concept - very strange. (It has allowed me to realized that someone in our neighborhood vaccuums their home at 2 am every morning too!) But I love the peace and quiet that early in the morning. It is so surrene and also dark. Great for prayer and bible study time. So that has been sweet too. It is a wonderful way to start a morning not rushed and refreshed! And not even hungry! What a concept for me. I really like this new me!
My friend who is a radiologist told me that PET scans are truly beautiful with lots of colors so I am looking forward to seeing what colors I am! I wonder if I can get a copy to take home? :-) It sounds like it would be fun to frame!
Today I lift up my friends son's in the hospital for healing, those with cancer for healing, and strength and peace for those dealing with other issues. God knows where you are and what you are going through and He is in control of it all. Thank you God!
Well I will get on with my morning - lots to do and time to do it! Hurray!
Love and greatfulness to all of you in my life sharing the journey with me. Have a wonderful day!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wrestling with Satan ....
You know that song about the devil in Georgia ? Well last night I dreamt I had a personal hands-on fight with Satan and it felt so real I screamed out loud for Jesus to banish Him and give me strength. I was fighting for my loved ones who do not know Him and are not saved. It was so intense I woke up sweating.
But I will start at the beginning for this to make sense. I was brought up in a typical Italian American Catholic family. Believing in Jesus was a given. I was born that way. But during my pre marriage counseling something very real changed in me. I accepted Jesus into my heart, confessed I am a sinner and asked Him to reign in me. I have a personal relationship with Jesus now and my life has never been the same.
Sure I was like everyone else, a cheese-ster. You know “cheese-sters”, the “good” people that go to church on Christmas and Easter. When people would approach me about Jesus I always thought they were on “drugs” because they were just too happy. I know about life. It isn’t all rosy stuff, so how could they be that happy. “Those people”, the Jesus Freaks, scared me. I doubt I ever really listened to what they had to say, I would just say” I believe in Jesus what do you want?”
While I lived in Europe (close to 10 years) I visited all sorts of churches, lots of denominations and found the buildings, as well as the clergy, all empty. It was really disappointing. But I felt God was calling me and I just wasn’t sure what he was telling me to do.
It wasn’t until our pre-marriage counseling when our Pastor asked my husband-to-be if he had a personal relationship with Jesus that I had to stop and ask – “Excuse me but what does it mean to have a "personal relationship with Christ"?” How do you do that?
The rest is history! Since then my eyes have been opened, kind of like getting glasses for the first time when you see leaves on trees instead of just green blobs. Slowly over time things start making sense and what I understand now to be the Holy Spirit opening our eyes and hearts; helping us to understand things He wants us to get. It is amazing. And how easy it is – we just have to tell Him we need him, confess we are sinners and that we want Him to take over and lead us and we are willing to let Him. It is truly amazing.
Maybe for me since I spent so many years being on the other side and so cynical, I felt like I knew Jesus all my life yet when I prayed Jesus was always at the top of the stairs (like my 6’6” father). Always at a distance and I could never see him eye to eye. My friend reminded me once how I used to climb the stairs in our 2 story house when I was mad at my dad, so I could talk to him face to face. Although there were times my Dad scared me, I was just as scared of Jesus. Jesus was always at the top of the stairs.
Now I can come to Jesus anytime. He sits with me, or carries me, I sit at His feet or sometimes on His lap. Or I walk next to Him holding His hand. It is so much different now. And now I finally “get it”. I have such JOY is all situations. I know life won’t be easy and I know I don’t deserve anything good. I am a sinner but I am a forgiven sinner. I have peace to let the past go. If God forgave me why couldn’t I? It is so freeing. Sure I struggle like everyone else with my personal lessons. God isn’t through with me yet! And I am so glad. This cancer could have been so different but I knew He wasn’t through with me yet. I didn’t know what the journey would look like (I still don’t) but I know I don’t go it alone. The perfect Father is here for the long haul and I am His as well.
I long for my friends and family to have this peace I feel and the JOY no matter what. I long for them to know the comfort of never being alone again and knowing the perfect Father in heaven. Life is all about relationships and when we put our trust in other people we are going to get disappointed because no one is perfect. But when we give God our trust HE doesn't let us down. He never changes. He tells us to give Him our burdens and to let go of them and let Him worry about it. He has the plan for our lives and it is so much better than when we think we have it planned out. He has shown me how HIS timing is truly perfect and so much better than when I try to make things hapen on my own. He lets us try and and is there when we fall. How much easier is to come to Him first and ask for Him to let us know when the time is right. It is so sweet!
I pray for the lost and am burdened for them. I want so much for them to know God's love for them and for them to surrendor to Him completely and be blown away by His unending Love, and the comfort and JOY and peace. But like the The Ten Commandments say, "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. "You shall have no other gods before me.." Our God is a jealous God and we have to worship Him alone.
John 14:6 (New International Version)
Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
Thank you Jesus for delivering me out of the pit! I pray for the Lost - may they be found.
But I will start at the beginning for this to make sense. I was brought up in a typical Italian American Catholic family. Believing in Jesus was a given. I was born that way. But during my pre marriage counseling something very real changed in me. I accepted Jesus into my heart, confessed I am a sinner and asked Him to reign in me. I have a personal relationship with Jesus now and my life has never been the same.
Sure I was like everyone else, a cheese-ster. You know “cheese-sters”, the “good” people that go to church on Christmas and Easter. When people would approach me about Jesus I always thought they were on “drugs” because they were just too happy. I know about life. It isn’t all rosy stuff, so how could they be that happy. “Those people”, the Jesus Freaks, scared me. I doubt I ever really listened to what they had to say, I would just say” I believe in Jesus what do you want?”
While I lived in Europe (close to 10 years) I visited all sorts of churches, lots of denominations and found the buildings, as well as the clergy, all empty. It was really disappointing. But I felt God was calling me and I just wasn’t sure what he was telling me to do.
It wasn’t until our pre-marriage counseling when our Pastor asked my husband-to-be if he had a personal relationship with Jesus that I had to stop and ask – “Excuse me but what does it mean to have a "personal relationship with Christ"?” How do you do that?
The rest is history! Since then my eyes have been opened, kind of like getting glasses for the first time when you see leaves on trees instead of just green blobs. Slowly over time things start making sense and what I understand now to be the Holy Spirit opening our eyes and hearts; helping us to understand things He wants us to get. It is amazing. And how easy it is – we just have to tell Him we need him, confess we are sinners and that we want Him to take over and lead us and we are willing to let Him. It is truly amazing.
Maybe for me since I spent so many years being on the other side and so cynical, I felt like I knew Jesus all my life yet when I prayed Jesus was always at the top of the stairs (like my 6’6” father). Always at a distance and I could never see him eye to eye. My friend reminded me once how I used to climb the stairs in our 2 story house when I was mad at my dad, so I could talk to him face to face. Although there were times my Dad scared me, I was just as scared of Jesus. Jesus was always at the top of the stairs.
Now I can come to Jesus anytime. He sits with me, or carries me, I sit at His feet or sometimes on His lap. Or I walk next to Him holding His hand. It is so much different now. And now I finally “get it”. I have such JOY is all situations. I know life won’t be easy and I know I don’t deserve anything good. I am a sinner but I am a forgiven sinner. I have peace to let the past go. If God forgave me why couldn’t I? It is so freeing. Sure I struggle like everyone else with my personal lessons. God isn’t through with me yet! And I am so glad. This cancer could have been so different but I knew He wasn’t through with me yet. I didn’t know what the journey would look like (I still don’t) but I know I don’t go it alone. The perfect Father is here for the long haul and I am His as well.
I long for my friends and family to have this peace I feel and the JOY no matter what. I long for them to know the comfort of never being alone again and knowing the perfect Father in heaven. Life is all about relationships and when we put our trust in other people we are going to get disappointed because no one is perfect. But when we give God our trust HE doesn't let us down. He never changes. He tells us to give Him our burdens and to let go of them and let Him worry about it. He has the plan for our lives and it is so much better than when we think we have it planned out. He has shown me how HIS timing is truly perfect and so much better than when I try to make things hapen on my own. He lets us try and and is there when we fall. How much easier is to come to Him first and ask for Him to let us know when the time is right. It is so sweet!
I pray for the lost and am burdened for them. I want so much for them to know God's love for them and for them to surrendor to Him completely and be blown away by His unending Love, and the comfort and JOY and peace. But like the The Ten Commandments say, "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. "You shall have no other gods before me.." Our God is a jealous God and we have to worship Him alone.
John 14:6 (New International Version)
Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
Thank you Jesus for delivering me out of the pit! I pray for the Lost - may they be found.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Sunny skies .....
I wake up every morning thanking the Lord for another day! I am so grateful to feel good it is amazing.
It is like finding a long lost friend.
After hearing back from Josh's principal yesterday about how he shared "mom has been locked in her room for weeks and I can't touch her" Sam took Josh out for a father son chat last night to see how he was coping. He has accepted this whole sickness and situation as matter of fact. He misses me but seems to be handling it all very well. If anything it has helped him mature and stand on his own more. He is really being blessed through this hardship too. Sam did ask him why he thought my door was locked and he said "So Mom can't come out." He was shocked when Sam told him it was so that HE couldn't get IN..... :-) I wonder if he thought this whole time Mom was on a really big time out! LOL
I had to run an errand after dropping Josh off this morning and so I listened to Genesis in the car. I never realized that Eden was in Isreal or the far East somewhere. At least that is what it sounded like because it spoke of the rivers that ran through it and one was the Euphrates. I was blown away. I am loving the stuff I am learning. I listen to my bible on CD in the garden too. Now I just have to see if I can upload a few to my phone for when I go on my walks.
I feel refreshed with new life and a new purpose and am making plans to do the things I need to in my home. Baby steps as I know I still am not 100 % back yet but it feels good. My yard has been the first priority and then my closet. I can't wait as I am really on fire and have a plan!
Please pray with me for my dear friend who wil have surgery in 2 weeks. I will be lifting her up for healing and peace everyday. I feel so blessed that I have had this time to lift others up in prayer and to serve. And if I forgot someone since my list has grown so long now, I know the Holy Spirit can intercede for me for the needs of God's people. I know I just need to be obedient and go to the Lord in prayer. God is so patient with us! It's amazing!
My daily devotion today is this: 1 Timothy 6:12 (New International Version)
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.
Thank you Lord for today!
It is like finding a long lost friend.
After hearing back from Josh's principal yesterday about how he shared "mom has been locked in her room for weeks and I can't touch her" Sam took Josh out for a father son chat last night to see how he was coping. He has accepted this whole sickness and situation as matter of fact. He misses me but seems to be handling it all very well. If anything it has helped him mature and stand on his own more. He is really being blessed through this hardship too. Sam did ask him why he thought my door was locked and he said "So Mom can't come out." He was shocked when Sam told him it was so that HE couldn't get IN..... :-) I wonder if he thought this whole time Mom was on a really big time out! LOL
I had to run an errand after dropping Josh off this morning and so I listened to Genesis in the car. I never realized that Eden was in Isreal or the far East somewhere. At least that is what it sounded like because it spoke of the rivers that ran through it and one was the Euphrates. I was blown away. I am loving the stuff I am learning. I listen to my bible on CD in the garden too. Now I just have to see if I can upload a few to my phone for when I go on my walks.
I feel refreshed with new life and a new purpose and am making plans to do the things I need to in my home. Baby steps as I know I still am not 100 % back yet but it feels good. My yard has been the first priority and then my closet. I can't wait as I am really on fire and have a plan!
Please pray with me for my dear friend who wil have surgery in 2 weeks. I will be lifting her up for healing and peace everyday. I feel so blessed that I have had this time to lift others up in prayer and to serve. And if I forgot someone since my list has grown so long now, I know the Holy Spirit can intercede for me for the needs of God's people. I know I just need to be obedient and go to the Lord in prayer. God is so patient with us! It's amazing!
My daily devotion today is this: 1 Timothy 6:12 (New International Version)
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.
Thank you Lord for today!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Clear with blue skies!
Today was another beautiful day! Josh finally went back to school and I had an awesome phone call catching up with a dear friend! That is twice (2 different dear friends) in one week! Man I am blessed! That is what life is all about ... relationships! :-)
I had a great restful night last night as well and slept through the whole night! I finally feel like myself again! I didn't get to the exercising(bike riding) today since I had to wash all the bed linens twice and am still washing the blankets now but there is always Friday - hint hint to Loo Loo, my partner in crime. I hope she is up for it!
A special thank you to my awesome husband who has sacrificed so much for me these past weeks. He is so wonderful! I love him more and more each day! And to my sweet sisters in the Lord, Lori, Gala, Marilyn, Sue and Liz for their phone calls. You have really encouraged me and gave me the much needed "HUGS" through the phone this week! Thanks !
Also a special thanks to my awesome mom who calls me everyday to check in! I look forward to those calls (although as I am feeling better I haven't been home to get them - yesterday and today) but thanks for calling! I do appreciate it!
I find I enjoy just sitting in my car in the driveway listening to the bible on CD and enjoying the warmth of the sun and being Outside! I did go out in teh backyard for 2 hours listened to the CD's and weeded. My backyard is coming along nicely although very slowly!
On a lighter side......
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Little John the Baptist
Matt..18:4-5
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
And who ever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. "
Johnny's Mother looked out the window and noticed him "playing church" with their cat.
He had the cat sitting quietly and he was preaching to it. She smiled and went about her work. A while later she heard loud meowing and hissing and ran back To the open window to see Johnny baptizing the cat in a tub of water.
She called out, "Johnny, stop that! The cat is afraid of water!"
Johnny looked up at her and said, "He should have thought about that before he joined my church."
Knowing scripture can save your life - in more ways than one!
Love to you all!
I had a great restful night last night as well and slept through the whole night! I finally feel like myself again! I didn't get to the exercising(bike riding) today since I had to wash all the bed linens twice and am still washing the blankets now but there is always Friday - hint hint to Loo Loo, my partner in crime. I hope she is up for it!
A special thank you to my awesome husband who has sacrificed so much for me these past weeks. He is so wonderful! I love him more and more each day! And to my sweet sisters in the Lord, Lori, Gala, Marilyn, Sue and Liz for their phone calls. You have really encouraged me and gave me the much needed "HUGS" through the phone this week! Thanks !
Also a special thanks to my awesome mom who calls me everyday to check in! I look forward to those calls (although as I am feeling better I haven't been home to get them - yesterday and today) but thanks for calling! I do appreciate it!
I find I enjoy just sitting in my car in the driveway listening to the bible on CD and enjoying the warmth of the sun and being Outside! I did go out in teh backyard for 2 hours listened to the CD's and weeded. My backyard is coming along nicely although very slowly!
On a lighter side......
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Little John the Baptist
Matt..18:4-5
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
And who ever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. "
Johnny's Mother looked out the window and noticed him "playing church" with their cat.
He had the cat sitting quietly and he was preaching to it. She smiled and went about her work. A while later she heard loud meowing and hissing and ran back To the open window to see Johnny baptizing the cat in a tub of water.
She called out, "Johnny, stop that! The cat is afraid of water!"
Johnny looked up at her and said, "He should have thought about that before he joined my church."
Knowing scripture can save your life - in more ways than one!
Love to you all!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
What a beautiful day.....
Praise the Lord! I slept great last night! I realize it has only been one night but I think that cutting my synthroid in half worked very well. Phew!
Also my new found love with gum has given me my taste back again and today I felt like myself again! Man I missed me! :-) Hurray! Sam came in this morning and tesated everything including me with the geiger counter. I had been like up to a 20 when I first came home. I was a four today and that was at about 1.5 ft. Monday was teh official half life so the radiation whatever is left is only half the strength it had been. Next Monday I get my full body scan andit will only be 25 % of its original strength. (Hurray I get to use the Chermistry I learned at 16!) I knew there was a reason I took that instead of physics! lol
So I had more confidence to stay home with Josh even though I still stayed 5 ft away or in my room for most of the day. Yesterday Josh stayed home from school and I just stayed away from him as much as possible. It worked out fine. He still had a slight fever last night so I kept him home today too. By the afternoon his hunger had returned so tomorrow it will be back to school. He is on an antibiotic so that is helping although he blows his nose every minute so I will send him with a garbage bag and box of tissues.
I missed going to bible study but I have the lessons so I am not too far behind. I really could not believe how good I felt today. :-) My friend Loo Loo hooked us up with lots of ready to eat stuff so I have been really enjoying meals again now I can taste them! I still can't eat much but that is a good thing. I don't need to eat as much as I was eating! Jenny Craig - cut each meal in half and put the other half away right away then eat what you have with a full glass of water.
Last night and again tonight I walked rapidly in place for a good 20 min. I can't wait to get back on my mountain bike. I will maybe try it tomorrow and see if I can do it. I can always just rest and then walk it back if it is too much. It will feel good to get some exercise again. I did get out and weed again! My garden is looking pretty good and the grass yard also.
I did spend a great amount of time today washing my clothes and bed sheets etc. I had to wash everything twice so it has tajken all day. I am on the last loads drying them. I can't drythe sleeping bags very quickly so I may be up kinda late tonight. Sam said he would check my room again once it is all washed to see where teh hot spots kind of are. So far it all is very low except for my toothbrush which I promptly threw away and double bagged. Just got my new one unwrapped. Hurray!
Well off to check the laundry! Thanks for the prayers and looking forward to another restful night! I can't wait to hug and kiss my family again but still probably anohter week to 2 weeks before that will happen.
G Nite all!
Also my new found love with gum has given me my taste back again and today I felt like myself again! Man I missed me! :-) Hurray! Sam came in this morning and tesated everything including me with the geiger counter. I had been like up to a 20 when I first came home. I was a four today and that was at about 1.5 ft. Monday was teh official half life so the radiation whatever is left is only half the strength it had been. Next Monday I get my full body scan andit will only be 25 % of its original strength. (Hurray I get to use the Chermistry I learned at 16!) I knew there was a reason I took that instead of physics! lol
So I had more confidence to stay home with Josh even though I still stayed 5 ft away or in my room for most of the day. Yesterday Josh stayed home from school and I just stayed away from him as much as possible. It worked out fine. He still had a slight fever last night so I kept him home today too. By the afternoon his hunger had returned so tomorrow it will be back to school. He is on an antibiotic so that is helping although he blows his nose every minute so I will send him with a garbage bag and box of tissues.
I missed going to bible study but I have the lessons so I am not too far behind. I really could not believe how good I felt today. :-) My friend Loo Loo hooked us up with lots of ready to eat stuff so I have been really enjoying meals again now I can taste them! I still can't eat much but that is a good thing. I don't need to eat as much as I was eating! Jenny Craig - cut each meal in half and put the other half away right away then eat what you have with a full glass of water.
Last night and again tonight I walked rapidly in place for a good 20 min. I can't wait to get back on my mountain bike. I will maybe try it tomorrow and see if I can do it. I can always just rest and then walk it back if it is too much. It will feel good to get some exercise again. I did get out and weed again! My garden is looking pretty good and the grass yard also.
I did spend a great amount of time today washing my clothes and bed sheets etc. I had to wash everything twice so it has tajken all day. I am on the last loads drying them. I can't drythe sleeping bags very quickly so I may be up kinda late tonight. Sam said he would check my room again once it is all washed to see where teh hot spots kind of are. So far it all is very low except for my toothbrush which I promptly threw away and double bagged. Just got my new one unwrapped. Hurray!
Well off to check the laundry! Thanks for the prayers and looking forward to another restful night! I can't wait to hug and kiss my family again but still probably anohter week to 2 weeks before that will happen.
G Nite all!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Our garden..... :-)
Our 1st valencia oranges ever!
My broccolli flower ! Yum ...........................Our roma tomatoes (above) and brussel sprouts and carrots below! Then some cherry tomatoes, lettuce, celery and bell pepper. Then our myer lemon tree and some lovely daffodils from Lori! Thanks Loo Loo *Hugs!*
No sleep again?!
So after waking up at 2:30 am again just like last night, I decided it was medicine induced worry and not the sickness of my family. Then when all the symptoms I had when I had cancer began again, and I had to urinate frequently I decided to page the Doc. I had it until 5:45 am. I wasn't concerned about the symptoms but was worried that knew I had to take my synthroid again but wanted to take a half dose and to make sure the Dr was ok with that. The great part was that he suggested it even though I hadn't shared my thoughts were there also. So praise the Lord! He agreed that although I will have symptoms as my body learns to adjust we will try just a half of the pill for a while. Phew!
Then on top of the lack of sleep I had to take a 1/3 of a benedryl and so now I could sleep well.....
But as life is what it is - Josh still was feeling really bad so we let him stay home today. So he is resting in the front and I in my room. Sam did check my glow and it is WAY down to just 5. So I thnk I am finally pretty safe to be around - not safe for extending cuddling yet but well on our way.
I will sleep well tonight (I hope and pray!) :-) Today is officailly the 1st half life - the 8th day so that makes me feel really really good!
Off to make sure Josh is covered and resting - so ttyl
Then on top of the lack of sleep I had to take a 1/3 of a benedryl and so now I could sleep well.....
But as life is what it is - Josh still was feeling really bad so we let him stay home today. So he is resting in the front and I in my room. Sam did check my glow and it is WAY down to just 5. So I thnk I am finally pretty safe to be around - not safe for extending cuddling yet but well on our way.
I will sleep well tonight (I hope and pray!) :-) Today is officailly the 1st half life - the 8th day so that makes me feel really really good!
Off to make sure Josh is covered and resting - so ttyl
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